Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Go Figure (I bet YOU knew)

SOOOO...

I can't tell you how much I have appreciated all the comments, facebook posts, and emails I have gotten over the past month and a half. You all seriously ROCK! I just love how much we support each other.

Yep. I was going through something extremely heartbreaking. So I took a break. It was supposed to be for 1 month. After March was over, I made the following decision.

I quit.

I resigned from all of my design team commitments except Fancy Pants. And I thought I would resign from Fancy Pants too but I just got a huge box from them and didn't feel right quitting right after receiving it. So I hadn't resigned from them yet. But I gave it all up. I couldn't imagine ever really putting much into this hobby or this industry again. My life seemed so different. I seemed so different.

I even gave up Scrapbook Challenges. The fabulous Brynn is now the owner and operator for the group.

I have spent the last two weeks cleaning out my scrapbook room and selling stuff on ebay. A LOT of stuff. I mean, you should see all the purging I have done. And now that that is done...

I want to scrapbook.

Seriously!?! Isn't that crazy! But it's also incredibly encouraging. I thought that part of my life was over. But now that my room is getting clean and has a lot less in it, I actually feel very inspired by it. I WANT to go sit down and work on something. I am itching to break out my FP box and work on assignments...I'm full of new ideas!

And for the first time in a long time, today I even sat down and looked at some blogs. :)

I'm not saying that everything is going back to how it was. I probably won't be posting every day. I have to make the decision to still keep my focus where it needs to be. I'll start slow. I like the idea of only being on the Fancy Pants team...except I may be willing to do one more team (the right team *wink wink*). I just saw that I have missed the one DT call I have gone for the past 3 years. It's that time again, and I missed it. Well technically there's still a week left. Don't know if I will get my act pulled together in time or not. But that is also another encouraging and inspiring thought. I'm really starting the believe that Pamela, the scrapbooker, may not be gone after all.

So there you have it.

I thought I had quit, but here I am.

And thank you to all of you who shared with me that I had won on the Prima blog! Again, you all ROCK! :) In case you missed it...here's the layout I made that won over there last month...


I took a large circle embroidery thingy (lol...sorry, not sure what they are called) and used it for the background misting. I just love how beautiful and delicate the whole page looks.



Ok...

well, I'll be back. I have to catch up on posting my Fancy Pants projects and I still have a bunch of My Little Shoebox to share with you all as well.

Take care. And again, thank you for caring.


23 comments:

scrappinlil said...

Wow Beautiful layout...Love the pics, flowers, colors...all of it. TFS

Chris said...

I was just thinking about you, ironically enough. I'd been so busy that I guess I thought I'd just missed you posting, except I didn't. It's great that you're inspiration is coming back -- that ridding yourself of lots of extra is doing that for you. I was always amazed at how much you did while juggling small children. I hope you do try for that DT call, but even if you don't, it's nice to know that you're back. :)

Very feminine and pretty layout!

Amy said...

glad to see you're back, scrapbooking or not :)

Sabrina said...

Hi Pamela. It's really good to be able to see your beautiful work again. Whatever your decision is, I hope it will do you good. It's ok, you can scrap whenever you feel like. Don't quit ;) Take care dear!! Hugs.

Patricia said...

Hugs to you, Pamela! I hope that whatever brought you down is past and you can start healing. Remember, we are all here for you!

Cheryl said...

Love the heart balloons and flowers.

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Lynn said...

hugs and prayers. and so glad you're back however you want to be.

Rene' Sharp said...

It's so important that you have something for you!! Scrapping is an outlet, and I am so glad you are not quitting altogether!! And as a bonus you are capturing memories for your kids, nothing wrong with that. Sending you love x

Jolanda said...

Hi Pam,so happy to read this!!
You need scrapbook!!
If there is anyone who ROCKS it's you!
xx

darkpoetess said...

so happy to hear this. you need some sort of outlet, and since you're so good at it, it may as well be scrapbooking! x

Lindy said...

Hugs and prayers Pamela!!! I'm so glad to see your post. I have been thinking about you and wondering if you are doing. I totally love your inspriation and also understand. Sending you love and {{{{HUGS}}} Lindy

Diane said...

Glad to "see" you again, Pamela! You are an awesome scrapper and I know whatever amount of scrapping you do, it will be gorgeous! Lean on the Lord during this time and remember that "Whatever God leads you to, He will get you through"!

Nicolle Kramer said...

What a pretty pink layout! Glad to see your back (even if its slow going) and things are slowly getting better! The SC was the first site I ever joined and want to thank you so much for creating it.. it's truly inspirational and took my creativity to another level..you have also turned me onto and made me aware of all the scrappy things available out there. Not to mention the sweet DT you picked who are also truly inspirational and have made some fab friends there. I am just glad to be a member of such a sweet community! You Rock! Stay strong!...:)♥

anazelia said...

so glad to see you are healing Pamela. Take it slow and do what needs to be done. god willing this too will pass.

Savannah O'Gwynn said...

So sorry that I didn't know that you were OUT! I am so behind--and I'm sorry I wasn't here to encourage! I pray that you are making the right choices and taking it easy (for yourself!!!) and that you come back when it's time:) Let me know if I can help in any way!! HUGS to you:)

ps...congrats on the win--and what a beautiful LO! LOVE the pinks!!

Alison said...

I totally agree with Nicolle about SC....sorry you've had such a hard time, but I hope you find a new path and happiness again
Alison xx

betsy (pharmgirl) said...

Hey Pamela! You sound good. I'm so sorry for what you are going through. You know it sounds like you are re-focusing - and focusing on one scrapbook team can really be good for creativity and well . . . sanity - LOL!
I'm glad you stayed with FP because creating is important, too. sometimes it helps you survive - helps clear your mind.

take care Pamela! thinking of you!

Katja Schneider said...

Good to hear you are finding a little creativity again. I hope you will enjoy scrapping again and look forward to seeing your beautiful work on the Fancy Pants site!

Lisa said...

I loved this layout the first time I saw it Pamela!

Glad to see you are back, you've been so missed!

Hang in there!

Random Memories said...

Love your LO! It is beautiful. You are very talented. My prayers are with you! Blessings!

Casey Wright said...

I'm glad to see that you are creating again. I was sad to see when you decided to take a break - I love looking at all of your beautiful designs. I hope that you find the path you are looking for - best wishes!

Melissa Elsner said...

So good to see you here Pamela! Isn't it amazing what cleaning out can do? Both figuratively and literally. Turning ourselves and our stuff inside out and just getting in there. New inspiration flows and, hopefully, new birth and freshness comes out of all of it! Good for you for committing to one place and putting the focus where it needs to go. But I have to say... I am very happy to see all your beautiful work being posted again. :)

Angie Blom said...

Pamela.. I am glad you didn't give up entirely... just stick to the one and see how it goes.. I know from experience how overworked you can get from this hobby and you need to re-evaulate your priorities. It should be a fun time not the other way around. I did just that last year.. family is first everything is else second.. Hope you are healing and making yourself feel better.. hugs, and wonderful that you are sharing your work again.. a little at a time.. hugs,